Why things do not work out the way you want them to

A new year—

In your head, another three hundred and sixty-six days seem like a lot of time to finish the list you have been dreading to accomplish since the previous year. Those images in your head that just do not seem to leave your subconscious is life’s way of telling you that this year, they would not just be images in your head anymore, but memories. As you picture every single day that you will be spending, you want it all to be perfect until the last detail. The fireworks, the sparkling champagne, the music, the New Year’s kiss, and the person you are going to do it with. You wanted to start your year right, because to you, this is a time to finally get things right unlike the last time. Believing in short novels that tell you that coffee shops are the best place for you to meet your next soulmate, in films that show you that no matter how much time passes, there is always that one person that is going to take your breath away, and in love songs that make you hear words about how love is the most perfect and yet the most complicated thing in the world, yet you still lock yourself within the endless chaotic abyss they call romance. This year will definitely be the time for all those ambitious pure desires—and it will be, you just would not know it yet.

January was supposed to be the time for new beginnings. Waking up early thanking yourself for the resolutions you wrote one December night. That month was supposed to be the moment of your first time writing on your planner you bought because everyone else had it. But sometimes people tend to forget and calendars also do too. It has been always the same time frame and for eighteen years you have been confusing yourself between an anniversary and a new life. Anniversaries tend to last for one day, celebrating one year of ups and downs, sometimes leaving you wondering how you ended up there. A new life does not require something to be celebrated for, or a special day where you get to spend weeks of unending preparation and exhaust yourself with people you always wanted to impress but never really liked. See a new life, can start at any month of the year, at any week of the month, and at any day of the week. You could choose to start a new life on Mondays, because that is always the day you drag yourself out of bed wondering why weekends are not as long as weekdays. Or even on a cold July morning, because you needed an excuse to get out of the covers and start your day too.

Sometimes the planning and the checklists aren’t meant to be followed. Sometimes life has its own way of surprising you throughout the day. Sure it looks cliché but you are not the same person that made that bucket list fifty two weeks ago. Last year you wanted to throw out all your high school letters one Thursday night because they make you remember of the social anxiety you always wanted to get rid of, but all of the pictures and envelopes are still in the box by the corner of your room because deep down you still wanted to hang on to them and remember what it was like to be fifteen. You can make revisions in your life once in a while and finally stop asking yourself “what if?”

Things do not work out the way you want them to because life is always full of surprises, good or bad--

That does not mean that you should stop making each and every single day count;

Because a new year is not the only time you could turn your life around.

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